This is a first. Two posts in one day. It has just been “one-a-those” days…

…really it’s just been “one-a-those” weekends….maybe even weeks.

I feel like we [but especially I] have been going through one of those slightly painful growing-pains God puts us through sometimes. It’s been a season of confusion and questioning and lots of decisions…and lots of going back and forth…and then back again.

Yeah.

I’ve been really frustrated lately and feeling somewhat bipolar in my mood swings. Not between anger and happiness, but between contentment and discontentment. One minute I love the way things are going. The next I wish I could change it all.

But you know what?

Right now I am listening to my husband, who has had a very hard day at work, play with our son. He is singing, and from the sound of it, tickling, and Jack is just a laughing and laughing.

Then it all comes back and makes sense again.

My life is so good. What do I have to complain about? I’ve got it all and a pocket full of joy, to boot.

Thank you, God, for your unfailing love and little reminders.

While ransacking my house for a lost pair of dance shoes today, I found an old and crumpled green piece of paper with the lyrics of In Christ Alone. I believe it was given to me three or four summers ago while I was traveling with Student Life. I actually stopped and just sang it out loud when I found it.

What a great song.

I felt my soul lifting as I sang out loud to myself, the Holy Spirit filling the void that I had been feeling this whole weekend.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
’til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

My husband, my son, my Jesus. I have all I need and all is well with me.

With love, Malorie


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